The Sound  
    
      Marc says the suffering that we don't see  
      still makes a sort of sound -- a subtle, soft  
      noise, nothing like the cries of screams that we  
      might think of -- more the slight scrape of a hat doffed  
      by a quiet man, ignored as he stands back  
      to let a lovely woman pass, her dress  
      just brushing his coat. Or else it's like a crack  
      in an old foundation, slowly widening, the stress  
      and slippage going on unnoticed by  
      the family upstairs, the daughter leaving  
      for a date, her mother's resigned sigh  
      when she sees her. It's like the heaving  
      of a stone into a lake, before it drops.  
      It's shy, it's barely there. It never stops.  
    
              Kim Addonizio 
            - from The Philosopher's Club (BOA Editions, 1994)  
    
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    This Be the Verse  
    
      They fuck you up, your mum and dad.  
      They may not mean to, but they do.  
      They fill you with the faults they had  
      And add some extra, just for you.  
      
      But they were fucked up in their turn  
      By fools in old-style hats and coats,  
      Who half the time were soppy-stern  
      And half at one another's throats.  
    
      Man hands on misery to man.  
      It deepens like a coastal shelf.  
      Get out as early as you can,  
      And don't have any kids yourself.  
    
        Philip Larkin
    
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      The soul, secure in her existence,  
      smiles at the drawn dagger and defies its point.  
      The stars shall fade away,  
      the sun himself grow dim with age  
      and nature sink in years,  
      but thou shalt flourish in immortal youth,  
      unhurt amid the wars of elements,  
      the wreck of matter,  
      and the crush of worlds.  
      
                                                Joseph Addison
    
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    Love is so short, forgetting is so long.
      Pablo Neruda
    
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    i loved my friend.
    he went away from me.
    there's nothing more to say.  
    the poem ends,  
    soft as it began -  
    i loved my friend.  
    
      langston hughes
    
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      To define is to kill. To suggest is to create.  
    
                                       Stéphane Mallarmé
    
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    Living like weasels - Annie Dillard
    
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      It's not just about who you're with.  
    
      It's about who you get to be when you're with them.    
    
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    Whatever doesn't kill you makes you bitter.  
    
                                                 Chuck Lorre
                                                 
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                - How Much Happens in a Day -  
    
      In the course of a day we shall meet one another.  
    
      But, in one day, things spring to life -  
      they sell grapes in the street,  
      tomatoes change their skin,  
      the young girl you wanted  
      never came back to the office.  
    
      They changed the postman suddenly.  
      The letters now are not the same.  
      A few golden leaves and it's different;  
      this tree is now well off.  
    
      Who would have said that the earth  
      with its ancient skin would change so much?  
      It has more volcanoes than yesterday,  
      the sky has brand-new clouds,  
      the rivers are flowing differently.  
      Besides, so much has come into being!  
      I have inaugurated hundreds  
      of highways and buildings,  
      delicate, clean bridges  
      like ships or violins.  
    
      And so, when I greet you  
      and kiss your flowering mouth,  
      our kisses are other kisses,  
      our mouths are other mouths.  
    
      Joy, my love, joy in all things,  
      in what falls and what flourishes.  
    
      Joy in today and yesterday,  
      the day before and tomorrow.  
    
      Joy in bread and stone,  
      joy in fire and rain.  
    
      In what changes, is born, grows,  
      consumes itself, and becomes a kiss again.  
      
        Pablo Neruda
    
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      Daydream, delusion, limousine, eyelash  
      Oh baby with your pretty face  
      Drop a tear in my wineglass  
      Look at those big eyes  
      See what you mean to me  
      Sweet-cakes and milkshakes  
      I'm delusion angel  
      I'm fantasy parade  
      I want you to know what I think  
      Don't want you to guess anymore  
      You have no idea where I came from  
      We have no idea where we're going  
      Latched in life  
      Like branches in a river  
      Flowing downstream  
      Caught in the current  
      I'll carry you  
      You'll carry me  
      That's how it could be  
      Don't you know me?  
      Don't you know me by now?  
    
                     Street Poet
    
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    look in thy glass and tell the face thou viewest
    now is the time that face should form another;
    whose fresh repair if now thou not renewest,
    thou dost beguile the world, unbless some mother.
    for where is she so fair whose unear'd womb
    disdains the tillage of thy husbandry?
    or who is he so fond will be the tomb
    of his self-love, to stop posterity?
    thou art thy mother's glass and she in thee
    calls back the lovely April of her prime;
    so thou through windows of thine age shalt see,
    despite of wrinkles this thy golden time.
    but if thou live, remember'd not to be,
    die single and thine image dies with thee.
    
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    			vjeruj da ljubav ne umire kad najdraze odlaze jer sunce ne nestane,
    samo se skrije, nema te sile ni sudbina da srca razdvoje
    
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      I was nothin' but angry, lost and on the run,  
      'til I stumbled and hit my knees, under the  
      California sun. Found love on Haight Street,  
      where an angel shared with me,  
      the secret of happiness... one and one is three.  
      
      Now my angel was made from, pure Wisconsin light,  
      she said we would have a son,  
      I said no, that can't be right.  
      She laughed and showed me, the deepest mystery,  
      the numbers of heaven. One and one is three.  
      One and one is three. One and one is three.  
    
      One thing about angels, they ain't always right,  
      we had a little baby girl, made from San Francisco light.  
      We called her Dharma, 'cause the truth was plain to see,  
      the miracle of life, one and one is three.  
      One and one is three. One and one is three.  
    
        Chuck Lorre
    
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    Once upon a time there was a wave. The name of the wave was, no surprise, Dave. 
    Dave the wave. Dave was a big, powerful wave. 
    His massive blue body surged across the surface of the ocean with great majesty and deceptive speed. 
    Oh yes, Dave was quite a wave. From the moment he rose up from the ocean he felt special. 
    He felt invincible. Ferocious storms battered him with wind and rain, 
    great ships sliced through his very heart, and yet he rolled on. 
    It was not for him to stop and consider the other waves. To stop was to die. 
    Waves have to keep moving... or else. But then one day Dave saw a strange 
    darkness on the horizon and, for the first time in his life, felt fear. 
    What could it be? Was it connected to the laughing creature sliding across 
    his face on a piece of wood? But before he could make sense of it all, he crashed 
    down into the darkness. For a brief moment he felt a weird, splashing feeling, then 
    oblivion. Dave was no more. He was now a part of the sea. And as we all know, 
    the sea loves to make waves.
    
      Chuck Lorre
    
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    T. S. Eliot (1925)
    
    I
    
    We are the hollow men
    We are the stuffed men
    Leaning together
    Headpiece filled with straw. Alas!
    Our dried voices, when
    We whisper together
    Are quiet and meaningless
    As wind in dry grass
    Or rats' feet over broken glass
    In our dry cellar
    
    Shape without form, shade without colour,
    Paralysed force, gesture without motion;
    
    Those who have crossed
    With direct eyes, to death's other Kingdom
    Remember us -- if at all -- not as lost
    Violent souls, but only
    As the hollow men
    The stuffed men.
    
    II
    
    Eyes I dare not meet in dreams
    In death's dream kingdom
    These do not appear:
    There, the eyes are
    Sunlight on a broken column
    There, is a tree swinging
    And voices are
    In the wind's singing
    More distant and more solemn
    Than a fading star.
    
    Let me be no nearer
    In death's dream kingdom
    Let me also wear
    Such deliberate disguises
    Rat's coat, crowskin, crossed staves
    In a field
    Behaving as the wind behaves
    No nearer --
    
    Not that final meeting
    In the twilight kingdom
    
    III
    
    This is the dead land
    This is cactus land
    Here the stone images
    Are raised, here they receive
    The supplication of a dead man's hand
    Under the twinkle of a fading star.
    
    Is it like this
    In death's other kingdom
    Waking alone
    At the hour when we are
    Trembling with tenderness
    Lips that would kiss
    Form prayers to broken stone.
    
    IV
    
    The eyes are not here
    There are no eyes here
    In this valley of dying stars
    In this hollow valley
    This broken jaw of our lost kingdoms
    
    In this last of meeting places
    We grope together
    And avoid speech
    Gathered on this beach of the tumid river
    
    Sightless, unless
    The eyes reappear
    As the perpetual star
    Multifoliate rose
    Of death's twilight kingdom
    The hope only
    Of empty men.
    
    V
    
    Here we go round the prickly pear
    Prickly pear prickly pear
    Here we go round the prickly pear
    At five o'clock in the morning.
    
    Between the idea
    And the reality
    Between the motion
    And the act
    Falls the Shadow
    
    For Thine is the Kingdom
    
    Between the conception
    And the creation
    Between the emotion
    And the response
    Falls the Shadow
    
    Life is very long
    
    Between the desire
    And the spasm
    Between the potency
    And the existence
    Between the essence
    And the descent
    Falls the Shadow
    For Thine is the Kingdom
    
    For Thine is
    Life is
    For Thine is the
    
    This is the way the world ends
    This is the way the world ends
    This is the way the world ends
    Not with a bang but a whimper.
    
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    The secret to creativity is in hiding your sources.
                               - Einstein
    
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    Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.
     - Dr. Seuss
    
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    Jai Bhagwan/Namaste
    Definition: A hindi version of the an ancient Sanskrit greeting "Namaste" 
    which is still in everyday use in India and Nepal Himalaya. Translated 
    roughly, it means "I bow to the God within you", or "The Spirit within 
    me salutes the Spirit in you" - a knowing that we are all made from the 
    same One Divine Consciousness.///An ancient Sanskrit greeting still in 
    everyday use in India and especially on the trail in the Nepal Himalaya. 
    Translated roughly, it means "I bow to the God within you", or "The Spirit 
    within me salutes the Spirit in you" - a knowing that we are all made from 
    the same One Divine Consciousness.
    
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    Do Not Go Gentle Into That Good Night
    
    Do not go gentle into that good night,
    Old age should burn and rave at close of day;
    Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
    
    Though wise men at their end know dark is right,
    Because their words had forked no lightning they
    Do not go gentle into that good night.
    
    Good men, the last wave by, crying how bright
    Their frail deeds might have danced in a green bay,
    Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
    
    Wild men who caught and sang the sun in flight,
    And learn, too late, they grieved it on its way,
    Do not go gentle into that good night.
    
    Grave men, near death, who see with blinding sight
    Blind eyes could blaze like meteors and be gay,
    Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
    
    And you, my father, there on the sad height,
    Curse, bless me now with your fierce tears, I pray.
    Do not go gentle into that good night.
    Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
    
          -- Dylan Thomas
    
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    This Was the Vision
    Katherine Kennedy
    
      Suddenly there was music:
    I listened; I heard
    Beneath the cadence something blurred,
    Something desperate and far and fierce and sweet
    Calling...
    Something close to the core of Life:
    
    I saw Life in mosaic, in motif like roses
    Thrown note by note into a Face...
    Under the chords,
    Thrusting at me through the notes
    Was something pulsing, something relevant
      to wings and spaces,
    Something sweeping and light,
    And sure of pattern.
    
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    When I was young and free and my imagination had no limits,
    I dreamed of changing the world.
    As I grew older and wiser I discovered the world would not change - 
    So I shortened my sights somewhat and decided to change only my country,
    But it too seemed immovable.
    
    As I grew into my twilight years, 
    In one last desperate attempt,
    I settled for changing only my family, 
    Those closest to me,
    But alas, they would have none of it.
    
    And now I realize as I lie on my deathbed, 
    If I had only changed myself first,
    Then by example I might have changed my family,
    From their inspiration and encouragement 
    I would then have been able to better my country,
    And who knows, I might have even changed the world.
    
    From the tombstone of an Anglican bishop in Westminster Abbey
    
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    abcdefg ijklmnopqrstuvwxyz
    
    Things are good, nothing much for me to say
    Feeling happier everyday
    Things are good, I've got a simple mind
    It seems like everything is going fine
    Fine and good
    Everything is fine and good
    Everything is running smooth this week
    I don't even really feel the need to speak
    But things are good, didn't mean to make you mad
    People seem to like when things are bad
    Things are good
    Everything is fine and good
    Is that too much to ask to be this way?
    I don't think I'm asking to much
    Is that too much to ask to be this way?
    I really can't stress it enough
    There you are, everything is fine and good
    There you are, everything is fine and good
    It's fine and good
    Everything is fine and good
    Is that too much to ask to be this way?
    I don't think I'm asking too much
    Is that too much to ask to be this way?
    Or do you think I'm asking too much?
    Is that too much to ask to be this way?
    I don't think I'm asking too much
    Don't confuse the issue
    Or take contention when you are
    I really can't stress it enough
    There you are, everything is fine and good
    Its fine and good
    	
                 - local h
                 
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    the handshake at mass is the only good part
    
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    lullabies to be sung
    
    
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    ode to me
    
      savannah riddle
    
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    do you know my poetry?
    
      every night & every morn
      some to misery are born
      every morn & every night
      some are born to sweet delight
     
      some are born to sweet delight
      some are born to endless night
    
                            william blake
                            
    
If we shadows have offended,
Think but this, and all is mended,
That you have but slumber'd here
While these visions did appear.
And this weak and idle theme,
No more yielding but a dream,
Gentles, do not reprehend:
if you pardon, we will mend:
And, as I am an honest Puck,
If we have unearned luck
Now to 'scape the serpent's tongue,
We will make amends ere long;
Else the Puck a liar call;
So, good night unto you all.
Give me your hands, if we be friends,

And Robin shall restore amends.










sun, sun, sun, sun, sun, sun






rose, rose, will i ever see thee wed? i will marry at thy will, sire, at thy will


i realized the moment i fell into the fissure that the book would not be destroyed as i had planned. it continued falling into that starry expanse, of which i had only a fleeting glimpse. i have tried to speculate where it might have landed, but i must admit that such conjecture is futile. still, questions about whose hands might one day hold my myst book are unsettling to me. i know my apprehensions might never be allayed, and so i close, realizing that, perhaps, the ending is not yet written

now i understand. endings and beginings are within the fissure, that riven cleft of stars . . .










not like this








not like this







It's a vicious circle.
Yep. Just keeps going around and around.
Never stops.
That's what makes it vicious.
And a circle.



honesty for pixley












when the sunshine don't work,



the good lord bring the rain in











































    "Let the Snow Fall Softly"
    Of what use are you to me, Time,
    With your ticks, tocks, bells, and chimes?
    You incessantly taunt me with my mortality,
    Endlessly consuming my fleeting longevity.
    
    Racing against no one, yet going so fast,
    Never were one to look back on the past.
    Flying by with uttermost indifference,
    Forever rapt in the present time hence.
    
    Your cloak of infinity deceives many a heart,
    That will have to bid adieu and eternally depart,
    But might you, when this illusion comes for me,
    Be so gentle as to let the snow fall softly?
    
    ══ ◦ o。◊☆. .☆◊。o ◦ ══
    
    good questions to ask yourself:
      what were you doing at age 11? (i was taking apart things)
      what words would you want other people to describe you as? (as bright and curious)
      what was your favorite concert? (sleater-kinney, august 12th 2006, the final show 
       - the Eels is a close tie, during the Souljacker tour - the opening act was a mime and they had 4 encores! literally!)
    
    They say that the world rests on the backs of 36 living saints - 36 unselfish men and women.
    Because of them the world continues to exist. They are the secret kings and queens of this world.  -Neil Gaiman